Sometimes it's so hard to control your feelings that you worry whether they know already by the look in your eyes. But you don't really have to worry about that, a part of you knows you hardly get noticed.
And you want them to look at you, notice you, talk to you like you exist. And when they do, your whole world shines. Their one smile, one laugh, one wave makes your day.
And in this you become so obsessed over their lives. You want to know about their life, their thoughts, their goal. You want to know it all.
You catch yourself lost in their thoughts, a smile on your face. Thinking of scenarios you shouldn't be, imagining situations which leaves you with a sweet smile yes, but something gut twists because you know that is never going to happen.
And yet you do nothing about it and chose to drown in your heart pool of wistfulness. For you are afraid of the consequences if hope extinguished. You fear hoping. You fear any excruciating feeling you feel for them. Because it feels so unreal that you don't want it to be real.
Paying no heed to the sanity you can't help but plunge in those eyes when they look at you. You can't help but admire their stance. You can't help but admire them.
There is no escape through this maze and just when you are about find the way out you realize that you don't really want to be free.
