I was talking to a very close friend of mine after a long long time last night. A lot has changed. There was a time when I was deeply and madly in love with a girl, one-sided. I used to be sad, did many things stupid. Well, I was young and immature. But its different now.
I know I shouldn't have asked about her to this old frniend of mine but still, i did. And the reaction was obvious. She freaked out, three years is not a small amount of time, you should focus on your career, 'abhi tak haan bolna hota to bol chuki hoti wo', i can't see you like this, if you care about those who care for you, then you have to stop spoiling your life. I said, cool off buddy, i just asked how she's doing nowdays.
I can understand the concern that friends and family have for me, but its different than how people perceive it. M not spoiling my life, I focus on my career, and m doing good according to me. Ya, I could have done much better if I had been serious from the starting, but it has nothing to do with my feelings for her. I have stopped fighting even my own feelings. I don't suppress any thing inside. And its a part of life. Its much easier to live life if one accepts reality.
And when i look back, I can laugh at myself. I did so many stupid and interesting things, which i would have never done otherwise. And all those made my college life so awesome that I plan to write a book on it some day. Everything is a memory now and there is no pain. Time heals everything, but I am still deeply and madly in love...n i feel happy. Still I think, kash kaheen wo dikh jaaye. Kash kaheen se uska call aa jaye. Its a parallel life.
aptly said:
hosh waalon ko khabar kya, bekhude kya cheez hai,
ishq keeje fir samajhiye, zindagee kya cheez hai.
:P ...
