You n me.. The story starts with my birth. You were 4 years elder to me, and i hated the fact that because of u,from such a young age i had already become a "maasi". From the very beginning, you were never a niece to me,always a dear friend. I could share each and every thing with you, starting from a chocolate,to teddy-bear, to the gifts that i had got for my birthdays,to the feelings that i could not share with mom or anybody else. You were that "chuddy-buddy" to me.
Those summer vacations at our house. I would always wait for your arrival. Didi,you and Shri,all three of you used to come and my face used to brighten up like i have found a treasure or something !! Those games..i cant even remember all the names of those weird games that we used to play together. That jealousy when you used to get a better piece of bread than me, those small little fights- sometimes only for fun, those mental banters, those endless laughters for no reason !! God.. I miss every bit of it.
I still dont know how to say sorry for had not been able to attend your marriage. Mom told me about all the events and fun parts of it. Wish I were there,with you. To tease you, to help you with your make-up, to hold your hand when you feel scared, to hug you while your "bidaai". But, I felt relaxed and happy when I got to know that you were really happy in your in-laws' place. You got a loving husband,caring in-laws. What else could I have wished for you ! A year later, I got the good news. You were a "MOM". That little boy added more happiness to your world. I was not in regular contact with you as I was away for my studies, but still then used to ask mom about your well-being once in a while.
And then, suddenly just a few days before my semester exam, mom broke this news to me.
I was stunned,speechless,shocked to the core of my heart. That horrible accident had happened. How could you be that careless ?? Dint you have a little commom-sense ? You had been a very good house-wife for so long,and still you could not be a little more careful about the fire ?? The stove ?? I mean, i wanted to slap you.. slap you hard for your carelessness. Wish I could.. !! The hardest part was not being able to see you or to be with you. Mom used to give me updates about your condition. She said you wanted to talk to me when you were hardly even able to speak. We spoke,you invited me to your in-laws' place,not knowing about the severe and serious condition of yours. I could not control myself and burst out crying. So, I cut the call in a hurry saying i had to study and i would talk to you later. Wish.. I wish I had known earlier that this would be the last time i was talking to you, then I would have at least told you what you actually meant to me !! I would have told you how much I loved you !! And how much heart-broken I was that I was not there when you were in soo much pain.
I miss you. I still can't accept the fact that you left us. But one thing makes me feel happy for you that you did not have to suffer for a long time. I know it would have been really painful afterwards. Rest in peace my sweetheart. This is just something I wish I could have said to you. Love you.
You have been a great daughter,a loving wife,a perfect mother,an awesome person,you will be missed with love..today and always.. You have always brought smiles to everybody's face.. Rest in peace my dear !
LOVE YOU Rinki,Mammarani.. :)
