while collecting my thoughts for this topic..a sudden feeling came to my mind what if i 'really' die tomorrow, then this will be my last post..
this came up as a brain wave for me that life is so unpredictable and nobody has seen future anyways that is good only that nobody has seen future otherwise we would not have been living our present but just looking into future where future must be 'looking into future' and so on and no present...same thing we do today but in a fruitful manner called planning future.
so i thought i'l leave a letter for mummy
sweet mummy
i love u soooo much, i know i am not the best daughter in this world as you think of me, i have made million lies ranging from skipping lunch to having a boyfriend in school ..there were many times i disobeyed u and many times i knew u needed my help in kitchen but i remained busy studying for no good reason and not taking your side whenever you fought with papa even when u were right however this realization i have made when i see myself in your shoes or rather heels...all the times u scolded me i thought u don't understand me, but the fact was u understood me so well always that u knew what was right for me, u always loved unconditionally and i have no word to use for how much u cared for me...u shouldered me every time i scored low marks and cried over silly quarrels with friends cos' u were my best friend always...from my childhood i had thought that when i'l die i'l meet god but if i die tomorrow i'l miss my god...i'll miss u and sorry for all my bad deeds but one more thing if i don't die tomorrow i cannot promise that i won't repeat them..sorry.
love u a lot..
may u live thousand years and me too :)
yours only daughter.
there are much more things to confess to others...but in this lunacy that i'l die tomorrow..if i did so, my life will be a disaster..
