Weight ( major problem in my life)

Time goes on and mind changes,
There was a healthy time when I didn't felt anything about my weight, and I did nothing before for it, but suddenly as I had crossed the line of integrity, I mean line of being above 20 years, it is like a big fat volcano bursting in me.
I Don't know why does it matters to all instead of me,
I am not in favor that I want to be fat as always,
why I will not like if I will have a 24inch waist or either I can wear anything that is good , or I don't have to struggle with myself in finding xl size clothing,
I am not very fond of eating,
Nor I am very lazy,
And ya I don't have any dangerous sickness name thyroid.... Every one is just like ohhh u might have got thyroid , I am getting sick of telling every 1 that no its nothing even for the satisfaction of my grandmother I had taken that test 4 times. Once I had it twice in a year,,,,,
I also feel awful, not about my waist size but when every 1 is at weighing machine n says awww mei moti ho gye, n what???? there it is only 40 or 50's .I am just blown off sometimes,
Sometimes I make fun of myself in front of friends just to avoid in case they make of mine...sometimes it is just ok just like I am kidding n sometimes hitted hard back in heart.
I like drinking green tea, but then also my dad let me the green tea that is specifically for being slim...
AWWWWWW I am sick! that, why every 1 don't except me like I am ....

My mom does... she says you are smart, you have a different personality but sometimes she is also taken with the negative vibes of every 1 around. But still she admires me for what I am.. Really!!

I am trying and will try always but what I want is to be like a very normal,common person happy with my own self, I think I would have shattered, if I would have let these vibes inside me.
I have confidence in my soul and smartness in my mind which makes me proud and smart girl in front of all,
But sometimes mind is forced to think bad.... That time I boost up myself, that No... You are smart, you are cute, you are bold enough and you can pass it through....and ya I do, I am not like being tensed or being guilty and feeling awkward about me always,
I am happening, cheerful and live life by making myself happy even when I am alone....as I Live My life King Size......