Yesterday night I cried, and I cried a lot. There was an outburst of emotions that I couldn't control. I then washed my face and tried to get myself together. For around 10 minutes, there was nothing going inside my head. I was blank, responding on instincts. My head felt hot and I was feeling really uncomfortable. I drank some water and pushed myself into writing this. I wanted to connect to the emotions that I felt during that outburst, trying to keep them alive for as long as I can. Its not that I like crying or something but I am feeling like I enjoyed those few moments. Relaxed is what I feel right now and confident that I am still a person with some goodness in me. Laughing is what all boys always try to do, even myself doing crazy, stupid things all day long, trying to laugh at the silliest of the jokes. Tonight I felt like playing with my own emotions and so I decided to watch this movie called "Masoom" and it got to me. It happens with me most of the times, I cry during intensely emotional scenes. I can stop myself until some point but if I let myself go to a certain point, than I am usually unable to control my emotions. I like to let myself go, I don't understand why people laugh when a boy gets emotional? It is a fact that men are more emotional than women. I see nothing wrong in crying, in fact it shows that you regret, care, understand which are signs of a good person.
I believe that if a person wants to enjoy his happiness to the greatest extent, he has to let himself go. And he can do this by
expressing himself as truthfully as possible through each moment in his life. If you feel like laughing, laugh...if you feel like
crying, cry!
