I am totally clueless as to what i want to pen down because the phase that I am going through is something that i wish no one else goes through even though the person is my enemy...but again it's impossible that this wish will come true because the call of destiny that's what i believed in till yesterday and that's what people surrounding me says......I hope I could just go beyond the so-called boundaries of destiny and could just bring him closer to me out of nowhere and time pauses for a while......so that I can be with him even if its for one second but all that i can do is dream of such a moment which will never be a reality...Who to blame????Y only him???No answers to any such questions because they have always termed as being useless but I need an answer because I lost him for no fault of mine or his.He used to say that who does good for others will always land up in a place where they will realize that life is a better place to live...but I guess destiny...yes... destiny was so insistent on proving him wrong and yes he again lost in the argument....I always used to pull his leg on his debating skills because I used to win always or maybe he always backed out just that i can win and he can feel good about it.But I should have just slapped him once and should have asked him to just win against him so that atleast fate wouldn't have dared to go against him but his sacrificing attitude have costed him his and life and for me..........I am not sure whether I could express in few words..I just can't say I will miss him because he won't let people miss him that's his usp....and I am happy because I am not ready to miss him...I know everytime I will be thinking something negative he will just be there beside me to yell at me and manipulate me with his heartmelting smile.....No I can't just run from reality which is harsh and bitter and time and again it starts reinforcing in my mind that he has left me...and its just been a while that we have been so close to each other sharing our deepest secrets and all the one-liners that you try upon me and the famous and silliest being"Tu meri hi hogi shart laga le" will be no more.
Bas vadein krke chale gaye dosti nibhayi nai tumne par me nibhaungi dekh lena har din tumhe tang krungi aur tumhe har din darshan dena hi hoga .............................................kash me yeh tumhe bol pati par......tum chale gaye ek din........bin bataye...But I m not gonna miss u................
