Today yet again I am frustated
Angry.
I, am shaking;
My eyes blinded with tears and my mind over powered by bitter sadness;
Today yet again
I feel so cheated.
I feel so used;
I feel like a fool to trust a person nobody trusts,
To believe in something nobody belives in.
And all you do is
make me feel so dumb.
So wretched.
So stupid.
So damn idiotic.
I feel like killing myself tonight.
But oh yes...
I am not gonna die my love;
Not yet.
I will simply cry.
Cry out hard.
Then hurt myself.
And hurt others with my words.
I will act strange,
Be cruel;
And Devilish.
Your love will make me that.
And then
I will smile again.
All for vain
I know my trust will be broken again
But i hang on
Just because i hope.
Perhaps someday I will be proved right.
Perhaps.
To love;
To trust.
