You will see one day I will finally fly away. I cared for you like I never did for anyone else, not even for my own self. I forgave you the first time you deceived me, just because I knew what it takes to be a true lover. I chose to keep you even when you cheated on me the second time. Even when you were astray I begged you to stay, just because I valued the relation of love even though it was not pure from your side. I was deeply in love with you until you made me feel like a savage. You fooled me just because you knew I could trust you blindly. I fought with you and at the same time I was crazy about you. I could not bear the feeling of "separation" so I decided to be with you. I never bothered myself how much should I confide in you, but the impact of those incidents was that I became rude and careless. It was not intentional, it was a gradual process. I could not see I was changing. May be could not have changed and just left you. But I changed because I stayed with you even knowing how badly you have hurt me twice; every injury leaves its marks and so it had. I turned into a person I never wanted to be, the rude and the mean. And when you had to deal with that new person that was born inside me, you became sick of it.
Yes, it was not only about you that I was turned into such a weird person; my life has always been disturbing. You knew it as well and yet you taunted me several times as if I chose my life that way. I could stand your taunts because it was not your fault and whatever problems I had, should not affect our relationship and I tried my best to do so. You know what was the worst part ? The time when you chose to be harsh and told me "I have no future with you", you chose to be cruel when I needed you the most. I never wanted you to hold my hand and take me with you, at that time I was a child who only needed to be patted on back so that he could know there was someone on his side and that someone really cares for him. But, you made me feel guilty and left me on my own. I only wanted you to say some nice words, no matter even if those could be fake. I only needed to be assured that I was not alone. You told me I was a like a chain to your feet and you made the excuses I was not looking for at that time. I still feel like an idiot because I am talking to you in the hope that you may apologize for what you said and you may realized how badly you have broken my heart, the heart that belonged to you alone. You have brought me on the stage where I don't need to think about myself, because I had always associated myself with you. IF there wont be you, I cannot stand anyone else. It is for sure that I wont ask you one more time about your future concerns, neither would I wait for you. But I never expected this much coldness from you. You will see, I will fly away because I don't need to stay where my emotions are taken for granted. Yes, I still love you but I won't ever accept you after what you did to me. You may have no idea, but I am burning inside every day and night and once that fire is extinguished I won't even know who you are!
