I know how you feel. Empty,betrayed, and no
happiness whatsoever. You don't want to
laugh, because you know it's not going to help,
but you don't want to cry, because it will just
make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is
falling apart, but not only that, but you know
soon your life is going to feel like it's falling
apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and
no matter what this person has done to you, it
feels impossible to stop loving them. And
everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so
much, then why do you still love them. That's
the confusing part, you don't know why, you
just do, and the people who hurt you the most,
and normally the ones you love the most. And
then, after few weeks, you finally feel a sense of
relief, like you're getting happy again, but you
know inside that you're just going into denial.
And after a few more weeks, you're back to
where you were an empty soul and teary eyes.
You thought you got over them, but really, you
just stopped showing it. And you can't help but
to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your
heart that are there forever. And no one
understands how you feel, and how deep you
are hurt, no matter who they are, because it
hasn't happened to them And even if it has,
every broken heart is different. They don't know
the true pain you feel and carry each and
everyday now, so you learn that basically you
are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to
overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break
down, right there, because you know you've had
enough, the tears just instantly start flowing,
and you're to the point where you don't care
who see's. Because you've spent so many
nights lying awake in bed, and so many days
being haunted by the scars and fear of
rejection. And in the midst of all these tears,
you know that its not helping any, and it's not
going to bring them back, if you ever even had
them in the first place. After about a million
tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself
back together and keep going. Your throat
starts to clench and your eyes burn with the
tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone
says,"It will be okay…” But you know it won't.
And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look
back on all of the hurt you had from this, and
you realize that people are horrible. You're still
hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that
everyone thinks you are okay. So now every
time you see this person, you know you still
love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your
heart yearning for them to love you, screaming
out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And
then you sit back and wonder how one person
could have caused all of this...
::::: PK ♥MâĎĎÝ :::::
