The battle is between the writer in me and me......As I sit down to write something the writer comes and says to me 'Be like a phantom traveler, come and go but your essence should stay...'
As I open a blank page to write something about me....it comes and says 'Let people know you through your writings and not what you think about yourself' and I start writing something else....
As I see through the newspaper to read a article and think to pen my thoughts about it, the writer comes again and says ' Many have written about it...write about something people don't know or something to which they can connect to'
As I sit down on my laptop and open FB....and it says 'check WB'..
As I fiddle with the keys of my laptop wondering what to write...and finally give up and think there's nothing worth writing and the writer pops in my head and says' check the JUST ARRIVED section...and tell me how they found something worth writing'
I look at my posts which gained many author polls and I quietly slide my name under them to tell people that THIS IS MY WORK.....whereas when I look at the posts under which I had slid the ANONYMOUS tag just because I felt readers will not approve of it...just because I doubted my writing in those posts...but when I look at them they had garnered the maximum appreciation...and I wanted to slide my name under them...and...
........ then the writer came and pulled my name from under it and said' You should have the courage to stand by your words. No matter what people think but you should have the courage. Anonymous is not a tag but a name itself and the writers should respect it....not like you when not sure about your writing so use it and then when you know you are getting the polls so just remove it...and now people have gone used to it under your articles.....'
I sigh and walk away...walking away because I failed as a writer... I doubted my writing, my greatest bestowal....but when I look back at my named posts and the anonymous ones...the writer in me always stood by them and won all the accolades.....I starting walking again...
but peeked just once again to find that the writer had gone....
And then the words come back to me' come and go but the essence should stay..'..my essence should stay, my words and my writing should stay....
As I walk away...I know tomorrow again the battle will begin...the writer will fight with me, agree with me, disappoint in me and guide me but will never leave me alone....
As I walk towards a new day...new thoughts come to me and the writer in me wants to eagerly pen them down....
the battle...the fight..the quarrel...the fuss..the argument...will continue forever between ME and THE WRITER in me...
