the turbulent flow...

My friend had been right about me! I am very difficult to understand.
Even I myself have been unable to understand myself completely!
one moment I am like if I want to just leave this world for no specific reason, and the other times it seems noone can be happier than me !!
I wonder, whether a pregnant women would have even so frequent mood swings!
Only the might Lord knows what I am!
Something chilidish in me keeps me alive!
I feel sometimes like a kid who knows all the joy and who knows the ways out of porblems!
other times, I am like a mountain of hurdles standing in the river of tears!
I know not what I am, but yes! I do care where I am going!

you know, sometimes it is better to get lost deep down somewhere in the liquid imaginations,
Sometimes, it is good to stay in the state of unconsciousness, it keeps you away from regrets and guilt!
Sometimes it is better to forget the problems and live like a newly born!
Sometimes it feels good to be random!
Someitmes it helps you be more active to keep talking, and
somtimes it is necessary to disappear!
sometimes it is required to keep silent and
sometimes being alone is the only remedy!!!

But, let not this "sometimes" become "all the time" or "every time"!
for being unaware of one's own self brings the greatest harms to oneself!

Live a life in a way that you don't forget to smile, but you also know that you and only you is the solution to your problems! Bringing a state of Poise in one's life is easy, but maintaining that balance is what judges us all!!!