Continued from The Timeline of Love-1
Kashish: A Sensitive Attraction 2008-2009, 1st year in college
"Kashish happens to be one of the most spontaneous persons I have ever met. I had a huge crush on her, the moment I first saw her. She had the most amazing eyes, hazel colour eyes with a mischievous glint in them. She was exactly my opposite in every aspect, so the attraction was always on from my side. We spent a lot of quality time together, bunked classes, went to places and did a lot of crazy stuff. There were times when we'd bunk the lectures and go to my place, she would chatter animatedly for hours and I would just look into those hazel eyes and nod my head at whatever she'd say. Out jamming sessions at my place rocked big time, I would strum the guitar and she'll sing those tracks by Avril Lavigne. I would sing Enrique's Hero, and she would listen it with rapt attention and soon she'd start singing with me. But as time passed by, the infatuation got over... and I did realize quite a few things. Though opposites attract, but they are meant to be different. I did lose my way, looking into those eyes. With her it wasn't love, it was just something unsaid. But for me, she was, she is and she will continue to be 'a sensitive attraction'". "Awww... that was way to cheesy dude. Did she know about all this?" He asked. "Yes, she did get to know all of this. And no love was lost between us. Even today, I just can't help myself, when it comes to looking into those hazel eyes..." I answered and he replied Go on.
Chavvi: The Girl Next Door 2010-2011, 3rd year in college
"Chavvi is just the kind of girl; one would love to introduce to his parents. She was cute, beautiful, affectionate, adorable, and helpful and whatnot, but what stood apart from all that was the kind of innocence she possessed. Her innocent smile is powerful enough to light up a million gloomy faces. This time around I was supposed to play the cupid and not the cupid's prey, but there was a twist in the tale. We soon developed a bond stronger than friendship. I didn't how, when and why, she became my secret keeper ... she got to know everything, every single related to me, be it Tanya. Naina or Kashish. Every now and then, she would come up with ideas to get me back to my girls of the past. With her, I felt like an open book being read by a voracious reader with rapt attention. We didn't talk too much, but still we expressed a lot. The cutest thing about her is the questionnaire texts we exchanged on phone, that way we got to know each other a lot better. In return, I used to write some poetry for her. Initially, she wasn't supposed to fit in my scheme of things, but soon she started to become a part of me. The door was locked, but love crept in through the window. Eventually, I decided to back out in time.... " "Poor guy, it did hurt you a lot?” He asked. "Yes it did hurt a lot, but when I see her smiling it’s worth it my better interests lie in her happiness. For the first time, it was good to be a looser. Yes I did fell for her, and she still tops my list, when it comes to female friends." "Hmm...," he added in to disturb the growing silence.
Rishita: My Lady Luck Sept 2011-Present Day 2012, 4th year in college
"Rishita is undoubtedly the beauty with brains; the girl is so full of surprises. She is beautiful from the outside as well as from the inside. Her slender frame, sharp features, her hair tied loose, those cute dimples on her cheeks alongside her sense of maturity contributed in making her highly appealing. Before Rishita's arrival in my life I didn't had the slightest belief in luck, but there was a fair bit of luck involved in bringing us together, in other words it was luck by chance through and through. I still can't forget our very first meeting... I was going through a rough patch at that point of time, I had transformed into a recluse. It was just another lonely evening, I was in a coffee shop and it was then and there I saw her for the first time. I was bamboozled by her very first sight... she had those cute dimples, for a moment I took to her to be Naina. But she wasn't Naina, she was Rishita. I had an instant urge to talk to her, to know her. Yes a conversation did materialized somehow, but it consisted of just two words sorry and thank you. In the days to follow, I took my chances...the frequency of my visits to the same coffee shop took a steep rise. And luckily, I did get to meet her one day. From that point onwards, there was no looking behind. Our meetings grew in number, from twice in a week to four and it escalated to seven in a week for some span of time. For some very strange reasons, I wasn't allowed to call her but SMSs poured in large quantities. Sleeping gave way to long chat sessions on Facebook chat, we'd chat for hours, and she listened to my stressful stories and came up with the most particle solutions. She was best at digging out It was in those chat sessions, she slayed the stressed side within me with her crystal clear philosophy and it felt like the bad. All this while the inclination to fall for her was always there, but something was holding me back firmly. Moreover, I didn't want to lose her. It was because she has become an integral part of me, may be something more than that. With her, it's completely a different world, a world were madness, seriousness, happiness and beautiful thoughts resided in harmony and I did not wanted to see my world ripped apart. There was just an aura of casual flirting and this time around I was literally not trying on her. But an event was about to change the course of my actions. It was of one of our weekend rendezvous at CCD, she was not in her elements that day. She wasn't the Rishita I knew; my Rishita was lost behind the frown on her face. I tried to investigate her, but she wasn't too responsive. On insisting her for the umpteenth time she finally gave in and started opening her mind to me. It was then I knew that, we were on the same frequency from quite some time. The mind started brewing up abysmal questions, is this sort of divine intervention? Is she inclined towards me? Don't you love her? Will history repeat itself? After sidelining all the questions, I decided to take a leap of faith. Now it wasn't about trying, this time it was about giving it all. The restlessness was back and once again I was going to hurt my knees."
Back to Present
"So now, are your visions about love are clear or still blurred?' He asked. "You know Anshul the visions were always crystal clear, but the perceptions were pretty screwed up," I answered in a bit thoughtful manner. "Let’s quickly try to review the timeline." "After you Boss," I added.
"Was it love with Tanya?” He asked.
"No, it was just a beautiful beginning" I answered.
"Was it love with Naina?” He asked.
"This is something I fear I will never be able to figure out. Sometimes she moves out, but returns back most of the time. She is very much a part of me. All I want to do is, to sit with her in solitude and talk my heart out. I want her to feel, what she meant to me. And I wish to have a daughter, who will have those cute dimples exactly like her. “It was all I could come up with to answer him.
"Did you really love Kashish?" He asked.
"Yes I did not love her. She was just “a sensitive attraction”, and will always be the same.” I answered.
“Now, don’t tell me you didn’t love Chavvi either.” He said.
“In a way I did fall for her and if I hadn’t backed away right in time, it would have been a disaster of sorts. Only a fool wouldn’t fall for her, after knowing her from so close. I still respect her lot just because of the way she trusted me.” I added.
“I won’t ask you the same question about Rishita, in her case I sensed the uneasiness in you words, the way you spoke about her. I just believe the Man in you. So how are to going to convince her?” He said.
“You know, it will not be easy but it isn’t impossible either. As of now, I have nothing in mind but her.” I replied
“You know Aashu, all this while I have been thinking that why and how did it keep happening to you? I think both of us now have to our respective answers and they are most likely to be same, but I’d like to hear it from you.” Anshul said.
“If any of this had not happened in the first place, I wouldn’t have met Tanya, Naina, Kashish, and Chavvi and Rishita. In the meantime, I got to know each one of them from the least possible distance. The time that I spent with all of them is unforgettable; moreover it can’t be expressed merely in words. I may have been selfish, I might have obsessive but at the end of the day what matters is that I didn’t hurt anyone of them in any which way." I said.
“That was just the kind of thing I want to hear from you.” He cut me mid-way.
“The still remember me for the kind of person I am, with them or without them. And In a way I did fell for all of them.” I continued.
“Ab bas kar, bhai ko rulayega kya?” He tried to sound funny.
“Kaminey…” I was all I could say and we both broke into a hearty laughter.
“Sahi me yaar, aaj maza aagaya.” I said.
“Baat to tu sahi bol raha bhai.” He replied. Just then there was a beep on the line.
“Chal teri bhabhi ka call waiting me hain, I’ll call you later.” He said.
“Ok bhabhiji ko meri taraf se pyaar dena.” I said ;)
“@#$$%*….,” It Was all he could say before I disconnected the call, although I knew there was much more in the offering.
Outside my room’s window, it was already Dawn and the sun was about to rise. While looking at the sky I said to myself, "Today’s going to be a good day" and started dialing Rishita’s no.
