It's been one month and I still can't realise how drastically it has changed. All the morning kisses, afternoon fun, evening talks and night romances has been changed boring life.
Why ?
I still ask God that question !
Why me ?
I haven't seen her in like 1 month and I am dying to see her. I want to see her in front of me, I want to see her when I close my eyes. I want to see her when I open my eyes. I just want to see her till I take my last breath.
But today was different from any other day. I didn't receive a morning message but yeah !
I do saw her.
It was 8 AM in the morning and me waiting outside her college just to get an glimpse of her. May be or may be not. But I am ready to take my chances for her. I waited half an hour for her after which I finally saw her.
She was wearing a pink pair of trousers, with a shimmering black top and a trouser matching handy bag. By God, she looked like a lady.
I called her that I am waiting for her outside her college. She wasn't supposed to me, but still she came. That proves that she still loves me.
I saw her from a distance. She was walking toward me like an angel sent from heaven to take me with her. As she walked toward me, I can feel my heart pumping all over my body. I was shivering in the temperature of 35 degree Celsius.
The distance was hardly 20 metres but it was like an year wait for me.
I was so happy to see her that I can't express but I was too sad to see how sad her eyes are screaming to me.
As she was standing in front of me, I saw her eyes. Only thing I can see was me. I know my girl very well. I know when she is sad just by her message on my whatsapp.
But today, her eyes were saying something different. They were screaming to me, Take Me Back. All the sadness, weeping and heart breaking situation we went through. I could feel and sense every moment of it just by looking into her eyes.
As I made an eye contact.
The only thing I could barely speak was Darling please come back. I want you more than anything else in this world.
But she resisted, She said that she can't because she has been hurting her parents for like 15 months and she can't hurt them more. I ask, then What About Me ?
She stood in front of me in total silence.
I saw her, and a tear rolled down through my cheeks toward my mouth.
Yes I was crying in front of my girl.
And I am not ashamed of it. Because at that time, what really matters for me was her. Not a bunch of people watching me crying.
We talked for 34 minutes to be accurate. After that she left for her college. She touched my arm little below my elbow. It lasted may be for a second but I swear to God there was never a touching touch in my life.
As if my whole life was flowing between me and her.
I thought today was supposed to make things a little better.
But it didn't.
But I am really glad that finally I met the girl of my dreams. The girl I want to spend my every moment of my life with.
The girl I can proudly say I Love You.
MOA
