The masterpiece......I always wanted to create...

The masterpiece......I always wanted to create one.I have never succeeded neither have I tried for the quest for creating my Masterpiece very seriously till recently.But I think that this masterpiece thing is going to elude me in years to come.Still,I think I should not stop my persuit for the masterpiece.In fact, this is the only force that can drive me towards my goal.If I have to reach my destination ,I will have to chase my dreams.
This masterpiece thing,I thought was not made for a guy like me.

I had similar feeling inside me about "Love" too.
I don't know whether these two are related or not.
Leave apart the liking thing,who would ever want to talk to a person like me..
...not so cheerful..
...good looking?even Zombie would look better..
.... charming?are u joking.
..Funny?absolutely no no..
and..Serious..like the hell as if returned from a war ravaged country and ready to go there again and without a good sense of dressing too.
Well ,I am used to it.
The master piece thing gave me similar experience.It is hard to believe I would be able to even start it.And even if by grace of almighty ,I succeed in whatever little I create...I can't think it to be even thousand millionth part of the masterpiece.Once my friend asked me about my definition of The masterpiece.I told him
my version
"the master piece is that creation which besides being perfect in all aspects of the criteria laid for it and always occupies the highest place and occupying the whole place with nothing space left to any where near itself."
I wonder whether such entity exists or not but however...my mind was obsessed with it.But till now I had no Idea about the the future of my masterpiece.How will I reach to my beloved masterpiece.This was another hot question coming in between me and my masterpiece and without its downfall it seemed impossible to reach her.It seemed to be as difficult as to reach the bottom of Mariana trench.The more I was trying the more it was moving away,that too with double the previous velocity.
I was becoming more desperate.It began to appear in every object I saw,every place I went,every street I strolled,in the air I breathed.The rain I drenched in too, seemed to have its scent deeply to the core of its molecules.My quest was becoming stronger and stronger.I had this feeling of some nuclear fusion going on inside me ready to explode any time.
The Energy is good but an unfocussed and unguided energy is pure evil and can bring only destruction.
So I kept check on it.I tried to pacify myself by remaining alone thinking about the possible result.
I was feeling frustrated with my efforts to find out my masterpiece.It was appearing every where.I was desperate to see what I wanted to see and it manifested in a number of ways.It was becoming worse with each tick of the clock .I started seeking solace in painting thinking that I was creating my beloved masterpiece.I tried to sing and I tried my hands at music too but to create a master piece it takes many years and I was no superhuman so I met failures at every step.I realised my foolishness in expecting success in the very first effort.I was searching for a perfect example of masterpiece from which I must get inspiration to continue my persuit.The humans appeared quite fascinating to me,their physiology ,anatomy and their psychology too.May be the Humanity factor was lacking in those whoever I met.The women of course appeared to me as strong contender and were providing tough challenge to my persuit.They appeared masterpiece to me ...each one in a different way - behaviour, relations,sacrifices, and their affect and those too with beauty and those with incredible brains.
And those with the lethal combinations of both ,were marvellous too.But still I found something missing in them I didn't know what.Till now I had rejected many attributes like music,art ,women ,places,wealth etc and still I was nowhere near my Masterpiece.
I was confused between the materialistic masterpiece and the philosophical one or the practical one.After so much whirlpool in my brain My subconscious mind told me one day that
"creating a masterpiece for the present time is no big deal as each individual is unique.Whatever his natural qualities are with him just can't be compared to any one in a previously defined scale.
Masterpieces are ever changing in this fragile world and they are bound to change to give way to next generation and they are bound to be replaced by future generations.The deal is to be the master.The master who can create the masterpiece at his will and destroy at his will".
That capacity is out of question here.Well I don't want my masterpiece to get old ever,neither I want it to be replaced by any new.
Then my conscience told me
"whatever you create in this virtual world,is doomed to go out of time,it is doomed to be replaced.Whatever you create inside yourself will never get out of you in this life and may be more lives to come.This is the real masterpiece you can create and it is never going to get old and never going to get replaced from you.That is the field where you have to bleed to get the scars carved out on you.These scars are the only thing that can tell your story to the world.And for getting the scars you have to bear pain.Some will like you and some will hate but you need to do the right thing, always and every time.
This is the real masterpiece you can create in real and not just for appreciation from the people.Then you will get appreciation from their heart.And that appreciation wouldn't require words to express.You will just know that it exists in their true hearts.
-for you and your Masterpiece."

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