You will never learn to love me, right?
I know that now. I know that you can give a person five thousand chances and they will still let you down each time, it is in some people’s nature to hurt others. It is in your nature to hurt, it is in my nature to forgive. But I am not going to take it anymore.
I am not going to continue to let you use your hands to fix other people while you’re breaking me. I was there for you, through thick and thin, when nobody else would have been there, I was there for you. I stuck around. You knew I was the only person in the entire world who would have done anything for you. I am leaving now. I am exiting your life as quietly as I can and I’ll make sure not to beg, cry or show you what you did to me anymore. One day you will realize I am missing and you will try to fill my spot with so many other people, but trust me, that spot will always be empty.
I am just so tired of loving a person who only loves me when it is convenient.
Today, I have learnt that you can’t control or demand someone’s loyalty or love. It has to come willingly, from within. That honest emotion lies only in your hands. No matter how good you are to someone doesn’t mean they will treat you the same. No matter how much they mean to you, doesn’t mean they will value you with the same reverence. Sometimes the people you love the most, turn out to be the ones you can trust the least. When you gave your all, whole and soul to a person, little did you know they will be the reason for lifting your faith from every emotion you held.
You gave me everything. Lies, cheating, pain, denial, tears, loss. So much of these that it wiped away those rare..rare moments of affection that we shared. You gave me everything but the only thing you could never give me was true love, your loyalty, honesty and a chivalrous treatment. And those, my man, are the most important aspect of a relationship.
Now that I say goodbye and our paths will never cross again, I hope you carry a piece of me within you.. I hope you remember our happy conversations, my quiet smiles and blushed glances at you. I hope you remember our good times, our lovemaking, our moments together. I hope you never forget to believe in yourself, I hope you never lie alone at night doubting your own worth. I hope that you will always know that you were loved, beyond measure. No matter what you did, or where life takes you now, I hope you carry a piece of me within you.
Tomorrow, when the curtain falls and daylight breaks, I want you to know that I am thankful to you for lending me your time and letting me take part in something beautiful like us.
Goodbye.
