The enemy within
Have you ever said to yourself, 'I will get up at 6am tomorrow and go jogging' and then got up at 10 the next day?
This is like an everyday thing in my case. It's so bad in my case, this whole thing can be named after me. I decide to do a 100 things the next day and keep pushing it.. I wonder why they say 'Tomorrow never dies'
I was back home and went to my uncle's place. There is this thing that happens for a month every December where people come to the temple at 430 in the morning. He told me it's starting the next day. He didn't ask me to come. But there was this time when I used to accompany him when I was around. So I thought I should go. I slept at 1am that night and had to get up in 3 hours.
4AM it was and my sad ass alarm started ringing. There was that instinctive 'Ditch it dude, he doesn't expect you to come.. Some other day' and all that crap from the 'enemy within'. For some reason, I decided against this 'NO' and got up, took 10 minutes to get ready and went to the temple with my uncle. This was probably my first victory against the 'enemy within' in such sublime fashion. I have done it in the past on certain occasions like getting up in the morning to play basketball, staying late in the night to finish my work on a couple of documents (when I was really sleepy), but this time I kicked ass with authority and it felt good. I wanted to do it again.
2 days later, same situation - 2 things planned
1. Get up at 4 for this and then
2. Go to one more place at 7 for some work that was pending.
Again there was this 'Ditch it man. You slept at 2, plus - you went there the other day'. This time there was an actual discussion.
Me: One more time dude, just get up and go
Enemy: Dude, you got a bunch of things to do, you will feel sleepy the entire day
Me: Nothing bad can happen when you get up early in the morning. You got to get up in a couple of hours anyways.
Enemy: No dude, just 2 hours of sleep etc etc and then what followed was very strange.
I got up, accompanied my uncle to the temple. There were a series of activities that followed, and I suddenly realized that I was dreaming. I actually got up this time and realized that my uncle had left. I must say that this 'enemy within' is pretty good at 'CON'vincing. I was conned this time.
'CON'vincing is what one needs to be good at if you are selling a product/service. I wonder if the 'enemy within' could do the selling for me. I am pretty sure he will do a better job :) Anyways, Sadly this time, I had succumbed. The enemy had won and then I finally got up at 6, and this time I did not give the enemy a chance to talk. It felt OK this time, but I wanted more of this. So, I have decided to do things that I don't like from now on and see how things go. (The thing that I hate the most being getting up early in the morning
courtesy: bhak sala
