I wrote a letter. A sorry letter. Wrote it long. But due to my past experiences I thought I should not send it. It got saved in my gmail as gmail auto saves every mail while writing. I reopened it today. I was not feeling that sorry today, I was not even thinking about that matter. I felt so embarrassed after reading it. How can I be so pathetic, all fault is not mine. Why m i made to feel that way. Go to hell!! Just wanted to write down my thoughts. NOW. I was young and stupid yesterday. Never give too much in a relationship, have some self respect.
Okay, now having said that, doesn't it sounds like my ego that has overtaken me today? Yesterday I was overwhelmed with love for her and wanted her back, now when m just okay, suddenly my ego is more important? Actually its a little more complex.
Now look at what I did. I read it again and I got angry and impulsive(bcoz she's still angry). In impulse I declared that I m giving too much, and she go to hell. But only few seconds later I realized all those things which I wrote in the first paragraph. And with time while m writing this para m analyzing, m analyzing because m not that much overwhelmed now. My mind is doing a good job.
Won't analyze more, m scared at the conclusions m jumping to, I shud stop here. So final conclusion. Don't act in implulse, whenever get angry just take a pause, keep mouth shut and regain calm, then if you want to thrash someone, go ahead, my best wishes.
Comments are welcome, though I hv not edited a single words while I wrote it. Pure thinking process.
