What after I say to you that I am in a deep profound thought ! . Involved , undisturbed , adamant . I am infact in tizzy , tortourous tension , My head is feeling like a boiling pot .I am not able to concentrate at any silly single thing . I have lost so many emotions just stuck to one . Patience , relief and peace I seek . I have turned and believed my pessimism badly to the extent that I have a pulverized confidence . Good for nothing . Believe it , I am not able to find any possible path to move away . Solace sooths . Still incomfort resides in everything .I think about you in everything I do . Just want to get rid of it and move on .I understand everything but understanding does not helps .Everytime I try and make myself busy yet I think you . This has been killing .. Career hounds me . Family, friends ,hobbies dont impress me . Not a good sign . I want to be happy , sleep peacefully , enjoy life , my work . But my life is filled with hatred ,jealousy and distrust . Thanks to you .
If now you come , I wont be the same to you . I have my apologies . And anger for I wont be the same to anyone . Thanks again .
But no matter what , I am living . And I suppose every life has its own tips and taxes . I succumb to luck at the end of day . Desperately searching for some other thing , which seeks my love to an extent that I forget you and never ever miss you even for a blink . Wish I find it ! ...
