" I have never imagined myself without her , that is why " , Adam answered. Patrick has aksed him for how long would Adam continue to live a life in whch he was not himself and was rather someone who has changed himself completely so that world could niether see who he was and more importantly he himself did not want to see who he was. And then Patrick has asked " but first tell me , why are you doing this to yourself??".
Adam was not always the silent and self absorbed guy you would meet , he could make you feel like an old man with his craziness and energy. But all that was transformed into a guy who would sit with friends without getting involved in anything and would do just anything to keep himself busy.
" You won't understand , it's easy for you to say everything , but I have lived that part and is still living it and I don't think you would know how difficult it is for me to be like this", Adam told Patrick. "Then just stop being like this and go back to normal" Patrick replied . Shaking his head in disagreement Adam replied " you won't understand".
" I do understand , that when you are day in and out with someone everyday for such long time , they become your habits . When every small and big thing that has ever happened to you has been connected to someone , they become a part of your life that you think you can never separate. And when those people leave us we think that a part of us has been taken that we can never replace , that a change would had taken place which could never be amended. But believe me , there is one thing that is bigger then anything we can ever imagine, bigger then put together all the things we have ever owned or will own in future and that is time. Time can do to us what we have never imagined was possible. It is time in the first place that had lead us to meet those very people in our life".
Patrick continued " I understand that there can exist a bond so strong,a bond so intimate and yet so honest that it is difficult for anyone else to comprehend it. But to lame over that bond for our whole life is to demean that bond and the value that it holds in our heart. Sometimes we don't have to let things out of ourself but rather we have to dissolve them inside us and make them a part of ourself such that they reach each and every part of our body and can enrich the whole being the way they have enriched our hearts. We have to make sure that they remain not as a remainder of the pain and sufferings but rather of the joy , happiness, achievements and things that we never believed we were capable of experiencing and not only experienced but also lived those very moment like a complete life in itself. We should be elated by the fact that we were able to feel such things in that small span of time which human beings strives for all their lives and yet are unable to live."
"To not let go of someone from our life does not decrease or increase their importance in our life it just makes it difficult for us to see what life and time has to offer us. Rather then living and playing our part in our life we remain fixated on someone's else role on our life and not our role in life of so many others. I know you will always have a concern for her somewhere inside you and you might not be able to get that out of you. But that is not a thing to feel sad or disheartened about, it is a matter of fact the most invaluable thing you would give for what you have received from her. But to change the very being for what she liked you and to live a life always in fear, pain and disappointment will not just be disrespect for what relationship you had with her but also to your own life which has given you that oppurtunity. Although you might feel that whatever was your have been taken from you and you are holding everyone responsible for it, but just for a moment think that if life can offer you so much you have loved in such a short span of your life, what it can give you if you give your life the oppurtunity to give you everything that you deserve."
" I know that it seems impossible to come out of this and not to think of her , but to think of her only for suffering from more pain would be worse then anything else you could do that person and to your self."
" Give your self an oppurtunity to live like you wanted to and see the good that would come from that experience."
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