its 12 o clock..its midnight...Iam alone in my room seeing the darkness of night...I don`t know what makes me to think that wish i could be merged into this black sky...I don`t know why I love the nights more than the day...the blissful,peacefull nights..Sometimes,I want to yell out loud in this empty darkness..wish sum1 could come and tell me its allright to feel like this.I know what i am writting above is rubish,confused state,may be..but I dont know y i m feeling lost..why i m feeling there is sumthing which i am missing in my life,,my life is just drifting away with the tide,just floating away...There is no excitement.what i am desiring ,i m nt getting..i want to talk wid sum1..may b my mom n bro bt i dunno i cut the call or simply jst ask them how they are,n disconnnects the call...I dunno why i m behaving this way...i want a friend who can undestand me,whom i vcan share everything,my aims,dreams n my weakness, afiend who is like me n who has same dreams like me...I want to something different,sumthing by which my teacher applaud me n say ,yes this is da gal...da more i m trying to get sumthing the more i am far away from it..y i am not hapappy.why i m not satisfied...y is sumthing burning inside my heart which i feel will make me hurt...y i m smiling outside bt weeping inside....y i have friends bt dnt feel the attachement the way i shuld....Am I geeting mad or is it normal to feel like this...Ithink m missing sumthing as well sumone in my life..bt i will get those..i have belive..i dnt knw abt sum1,when he will come in my life n make me feel special bt i m definately working 2 achieve sumthing..I knw God is kind...i know he iz examining me....n 4 dat special 1,m keeping my eye open..
