Pleasing my father is the hardest task ever, I havent been able to do that in 18 years of my existence, I dont think there is a possibility in the future too. He is a man who carries a briefcase full of tensions and if I was a file, I would be the biggest darned file there.
I am the middle child. My father had a lot of hopes resting up on all three of us, me, my elder bro, my stupid younger bro. So yeah as much as my dad has thrashed my elder bro, he loves him the most. He is studying to be a doctor in an army medical school. I guess this clears that he is the one who has made father the happiest he can be.
My father is a clean freak, he wants every thing at its proper place, cant bear a thing lying askew. He is quite violent, at least used to be. I kind of hate violence due to him. Every-child-not-wanting-to-end-up-like-their-father syndrome?
I being a girl lead to me being thrashed much much less than my elder bro, the youngest one has never seen that phase of my dad. I am thankful for that. I love my father, no doubt. But I hate how he gets so angry, but then again he has blood pressure issues.
Most of the time I end up having a row with him about some feminist issue. I have a bad habit of raising my voice while arguing. So does he.
Then they end up with either mom mediating our fights or he slapping me or something. This one time I actually started laughing when he slapped me, my family was staring at me like I had gone insane. I might just have.
He is a man of simple tastes and doesnt like when people indulge in too much. Most of all he is a very proud man and if anyone hurts his or his Family name's pride, be it his loved ones, he spares no one.
You would expect such a man to be really cold-hearted but you should see him sitting in a movie theater silently, tears rolling off his face.
I love him so much and I hate that sometimes I wish I didn't hate him so much for some things.
