Putting up a cute DP on fb,
having maximum likes on my status,
and the comments on the pictures I share,
the romantic cover of eiffel tower,
the laughing smilies in my statements,
inbox full of people's texts,
and larger number of requests,
they all certainly tell how happy I am !
How smiling I am
and how lively I am!
They depict how much I love being social!!!
Oh yes! I am lively!
BUt, it sucks!!!
because I am not what I pretend to be!
YEs, I confess! I am not happy with all that stuff!
I am full of that !
I hate being poked!
I hate being dragged in a conversation!
I hate being noticed!
for my life is already full of tragedies!
I dont want those "friends" of facebook!
for I cannot have friends!
I never had any!
For they cannot understand me unless they know about me!
and I have never allowed any body to come that close!
Keeping things inside me! I Am always fine,
It gives me pain but it keeps me safe from the "Symapthies" of others!
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But stopping that all will just make them curious about me!
"What happened" statements .. I don't want to answer that!!!
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yes, that stuff does give me some reason to smile!
but that makes me forget my worries!!!
and I cannot move ahead unless I solve my problems!
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My mind is perplexed and I am difficult to be understood even by myself!!!
I Want good things to happen, but I don't know What!
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I think I have to restore poise in my life which had been disturbed a long time agO...
an unbalanced life is driving me insane!!!
Well expressed