Our eyes met, accidentally, but she didn't look away.Nor did i. For a few seconds there was nothing else in the world, nothing existed, nothing which could distract us from each other. I saw the black of her eyes change shape as she focused her gaze on me and although my mouth was twitching to break into a blush, i firmly held my ground and did not let my gaze falter.
The metro bobbed slowly up and down, as it glided noiselessly towards the next station.The old man next to me dropped his walking stick and a finicky fellow fussily picked it up.But how could I notice any of this, I was lost in the eyes of a women whom i had not even seen properly. In those eyes, I thought I saw, a fire, similar to mine, a consuming fire of curiosity and desire, a fire that was growing every millisecond with the gaze that we kept fixed at each other. Someone`s phone broke into an ugly wail, but it only did good by breaking the oppressive silence and was followed by a long sing-song jabber.
As I kept my eyes fixed at her, I entered her body, through her eyes. I was able to match her breathing, soft, insidious, making her heavy bosom heave slowly. Then i entered her heart, beating in that ancient rhythm which unites us as a race, as a race of humans,by making us dance to it all the time and realized it wasn't very different from mine.All this while, she was the center of my universe, of my thoughts,my dreams,my soul, my physiology,my anatomy and as i was about to go deeper into her body, I felt a light jerk under my feet, as the train started to slow down for the next station. And THIS did it for me, already the situation was very delicate and that jerk turned into a jolt in her mind, for her eyes suddenly lost all their love,lust,desire, that fire, which was replaced by contempt and disgust.
My face had turned red with all my efforts to prevent blushing and i could feel the metro slowing down under my feet, causing my torso to take that short glide forward. The look in her eyes was becoming unbearable for me, for i could fathom no reason for it,and what was worse was that i couldn't even look away.She had me and she had me by the balls! I was squirming like a vermin under her gaze and i couldn't believe it, seconds ago we were doing that dance around the bonfire of love, lust etc.etc. and now she was looking at me as if she was my mother and had caught me with my pants down, beastly jerking off.
I could feel something in or around me swelling, with an intention to burst, but just as it was about to burst, she lowered her eyes and set me free. I retreated , as quickly as i could, from her heart, her breath, her soul, half blushing, half smarting, caring nothing for the universe I had created seconds ago, which was now shattering with extreme noiselessness around me, in front of my eyes.
As the train was pulling in, I saw, from the corner of my eye, for the first time, her whole body. She wasn't young, but she wasn't old, in fact, to me she seemed ageless to look at, like a tree or something, but definitely pretty and next to her was a little kid, of about five, who was fidgeting with her bag.
I didn't wait to guess or figure out anything and ran out as soon as the electronic doors opened, feeling very disgusted, at myself or her, I don't know, but i felt like I had been molested and had molested at the same time and I knew it would be hard to forget and even harder to lose myself somewhere to escape it.
