life s not very kind to me these days.trying to find the reason for it but yeahh i dont know why.ideally i should not care about it given my relationship with god but at the end of the day i m a mere mortal and stoop down to behave like one.i feel that its the call of god to become a snayasi that is to renounce all worldly pleasures and surrender myself to him.but god i firmly request you not to do this to me.i love u and have faith in you but you know what i want right.you know everything.all i want is to create a healthy balance in my life,my spiritual and my material life.kindly grant me this.i know you will.you know what is best for me and what will keep me happy.i feel this is the thing that will.i truely feel.and i am confident of this.
