I woke up this morning, was in bed for quite some time, did some bad dreams about my past karma......thinking how long will my bad karma have such bad effect on my life. But do have faith in the lord and as long as I am doing my rosary i know one day these bad deeds will be washed up completely one day. Thinking on myself sometime gambling have ruin me so much I was always lucky in life and was always protected by the lord but i could not understand life and Maya ( illusion ) which tempt us to do so much bad in life. Attending a class by a prabhu one day i realized that how gambling can be harmful and even when you win you taking people's bad earning with you like drug money, cheated money and so on which increasing your sin. Because of my addiction for gambling i committed so many offenses in life, cheated, lied, fraud lost so many good job. Sometime I think to myself I was always a god conscious person so how did i let myself tempted so much but believe me my friend Maya force is so strong in this kali yug. Well as said by Krishna its all about controlling your senses in this material world. I am 35 now all i want to be someone who can control my senses...........
