Is This My Test ?

I feel everything, going wrong;
Not for while, But quite a long !
None, for my tears, my pain;
Worries, troubles! Life in vain !
Sometimes, I cry;
Until my tears dry;
I see, I am not lonely;
'Cause lonliness surrounds me !
Life, has turned a total mess;
Is this my strength or potential test ?
Is this my fate ? Sometimes I feel;
I can't behold any heal !