Two days already since I have had no contact with you. I miss you baby. I remember what we have been through together. I remember the things we said. I remember our love. You are the one who keeps me up in this unbelievable world. I love you. I crave to see you. I wana hear your voice and keep waiting for you to give me any sign of you. I know the worst has happened. I wonder how you are and how you are feeling right now. I want to know if this means it's over. For me, it's not. It will never be. I still plan for us to make our own world and family. I will wait for you.
You are the one I love and I will wait for these four years to pass since it seems to be the only option right now. I have been missing my family a lot. But I didn't want to be far from you. I am happy I am here with them. Things have never been so beautiful between us here. They are trying to be good to me and I want to make it up to them. I even went with nani shopping today. And it was great. It's been such a long time that I don't at my best. I could not afford to take care of myself this way. It feels good to have new clothes, I even got really nice sunglasses I like a lot. Usually it's impossible to find one I really like. Nani was happy too to be with me, give me her time and get out of her comfort zone at home and go out with me. I am loving my new family. The same people, only different. I hope things will keep up like this here. And they know about us. But they are not bothering me with this.I am happy they know I love you. I am not looking for anyone else. And even if you are so far away from me, I know you are there. I only hope you are not giving up on me. I know you won't. I know they are not letting us have any contact. Damn age difference. I can go to jail if I try see you or contact you. I seriously would not mind if that meant that I would atleast get to hear from you. Or see you. But I am being logical. I can't get you in more trouble. And ruin any career I can have in the legal field. All my plans for the business which would have sustained us and secured our future together have gone to waste. But I can get back to my studies and that's great. I have never been so stable in a sense. Things may still work out for us later. Mum knows I love you. I am sorry that you have had to go through all this. I still don't know how they came to know about us. It's a dangerous situation for me. And it means waiting four long years before we can actually be together. The distance, lack of communication, and time may cause our feelings to change. One of us could meet someone new. But I don't want anyone. I love you. And you are in my heart and you are still my greatest inspiration. It is a real torture to be so far from you babe. I don't know if you are not able to contact me or just want to protect me. Or both. I love you baby. And you will be my husband one day. I miss having you beside me. Feeling your touch, being reassured by your presence and having the chance of cherishing every moment. It kills me. I miss you like hell. I hope you are fine though. And that your family is not too harsh with you. I regret putting you in this situation. I am sorry I took your innocence. But I love you. And I will not let you down. I feel the connection of our hearts. This is the only way I can be happy being so far from you. This life would have been worthless if there was no hope of us being together again apart from the cause of God.
