Disclaimer: The characters in this piece are fictitious and any resemblance to persons living or dead is purely coincidental.
And he thought life could be all good again. A typical Romeo Juliet, Laila Majnu or any other such sacrificial story. The heavenly earth was yet again turning back to whatever it was before, may be even worse so. No one died; but it felt exactly so. The changes in his own way of talking were so difficult to revert back again. ‘Tu’ and ‘tum’ had again fallen back to ‘aap’.
And she thought why not; let’s try it. In what way can that be bad? It’s something new, something crazy, and a lot of adventure. He piqued so much curiosity in her; so much interest which she never knew existed. Never knew she could be free again to talk all that love-shab ki baatein. However, ‘Sir’ and ‘sir ji’ were now back in context and what not.
Both so used to shiver in delight in presence of each other, even if it was just a mere long distance.
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There’s a spark I felt when I first met her. I could not stop staring at her. A chubby and cute girl just agreed to meet me. I had seen her pictures on facebook but it was just beyond my comprehension on how she had agreed to say yes to meet me for the first time, of course in a mall. I am a little introverted now and was more so in the earlier phase of life. But it was just so easy to tell anything about me to her and with such twinkle in her eyes, on hearing my story, I just felt even more attracted towards her.
Ok. He is a nice guy, and the best story-teller I have ever come across. How can anyone say things happening in his own life or experiences just so interestingly? Fine, not that I was talking to him for the first time, but the real meet felt so lively, never a question of apprehension yet crossed my mind. And I so loved it when the rain actually picked up so furiously and I got more of my time so late at night to spend with him. Of course, I did not think of anything more than friendship. However, I don’t know how I knew but that he was just going to be one of my best buds ever.
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It was not even a week and oh my God, she really agreed to meet me once again. Of course, I was really leaving the town I had been in for the past 4years, and all the memories were not that happy. Ok. No more thinking all that stuff again. So last time with her, it was dinner and this time it’s going to be CCD time. She was shopping and at the payment counter since past 10mins. Some payment problem probably! I was just trying not to make her uncomfortable because of my attraction towards her and hence was standing away, acting to work on my mobile while just glancing at her from top to bottom all the while. And the next CCD time, that was no doubt absolutely fun. The sad part being it cut short because of her relatives visiting her suddenly. But jo bhi, Life’s good, no doubt.
I hate this day. I so made plans to meet him today, then packed my stuff from office and thought that ok, today I am going to be with him properly for a longer time, totally unlike the last time when my boss had delayed me like hell. Everything was fixed, all planned and sorted out in my mind. I left office and that moment only, my cousin called that she is going to meet me today. Not that I didn’t want to meet her, but I hate plans being put on hold. And of course, I couldn’t again say to him that it’s difficult to meet today, for I didn’t know when I would meet him ever again. And I didn’t want to lose this chance. Anyways, I reached mall and waited for him in Lifestyle while all the time trying out new dresses. Of course, baba, which girl doesn’t love shopping when given a chance! Arghh. I hate this counter person, taking so much time. I had come to meet him and this guy is simply, nope, absolutely wasting my time. I felt bad that he had to wait for me, because I hate waiting for anyone myself. He later on said he didn’t mind when but when has he said anything that I would have been uncomfortable with. And the CCD time was again fun. He showed me picture of his Bella and I showed my Edward. Things were just so smooth and so relaxed, not a single moment felt that we were not close friends. And it made me wonder why had I just talked to this person and agreed to meet him when I never used to respond back properly to any other stranger!!
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I love talking to her. Seedhi saadhi, absolutely cute. For me, hot too! She is so very afraid to try out new things which she has not done before. Just imagining that she never had a night out life in Mumbai makes me think how scared can she be of things. And gosh, what distorted stupid definitions of things she has! Putting a smiley as gtalk status message because otherwise it would show default status ‘Available’ and which has so a negative connotation according to her. Can anyone be so crazy and thinking so much while being so lovable and adorable at the same time? And her laughter is totally like a kiddo, feels like she never really grew up. I so want her to fill up this vacuum, to just have my life feel like all happiness again.
Wow. He just sang ‘songs’ for me. Ok, he was intending to sing just one, but since whichever song he chose, I had not heard properly; so ultimately it led to 4 songs. No doubt, my good luck! You know you get such an amazing feeling when you realize that the person in front of u is singing “just for you”; something just tipsy-topsying inside you with that Goosebumpy feeling. And of course, he has an amazing voice. I felt more special when he told he has sung like this for just one person. Tell me, which girl would not like that? Ok, even which guy would not like that if it’s going to be a song for him? I am becoming more selfish with him, to demand all of his time for me. But it’s so very difficult to let it go, not to let my possessive feeling mess up with our special friendship.
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Is that flirtationship? This is what she asked. And she related it to the relationship between Bella and Jacob. I had actually to tell her that Bella was in love with Jacob too, only that she loved Edward more. And then she sang a song for me:
Tanhaiya mehfil bani tum jo mile manzil mili
Aisa deewana hua hai yeh dil aapke pyaar mein
A guy too can have goosebumps or ‘something else’ too at times! Gosh. I am becoming so crazy for her. I know that’s not good, not for me and especially not for her too. But how can I help it? She keeps on sending me lyrics of songs that she hears on FM, choosing lines that will exactly fit for “us”. She talks so sweetly and God, what not we talk. *Censored adult content* Never knew she could be so wild or “hot spicy”!
I finally found courage to sing a song for him. He didn’t request, but I just felt the need. Of course, I knew beforehand that I sing ok-ishly and this song is the best that suits my voice because I wanted him to appreciate everything about me. Not that he did not already, but still! And not to talk about guys in such a way, but he is a total sweetheart. Never argues with me, never gets angry on me. Who can not fall in love with such a person, an image of perfectness, tell me am I wrong somewhere? When he says love you or sends flying kisses, oh, it feels like time has just stopped for a while, I have forgotten breathing or I am struggling to pull air into my lungs when he is all that comes into my mind and heart and a tingling sensation is what I feel all over me.
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Imagination can run so so wild. I do not even need to be with her to feel everything around her. I love her. Just cannot stop meeting her in reality.
I can so feel him, all the time. All day talk – be it call, or be it message. 24 hours minus just 3-4hrs, that’s it. Of course, exclude a few hours of meetings in our respective offices and where too of late, we cannot control our emotions. Never thought I will say this again in my life, but I am so in love with him.
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Something just happened. I could not realize what it was. I thought there was something wrong. She was my closest friend, my best friend in fact and still a girlfriend. So, I wanted to discuss all my thoughts and assumptions with her. Perhaps she didn’t like it. But she never told me so even after my repeatedly asking whether she is comfortable with talks about Bella.
Did I imagine or it actually happened? The romantic words just morphed into something different; hitting me like shards of glass. The caressing with words just so vanished! I felt like a toggle switch. I so wanted to come out of this stupor, but I couldn’t. I tried so hard, never wanted to make my love feel bad, but just lost it totally when I heard his voice a few hours later. Lover’s fight, that’s what the terminology is. But when I started speaking like a short-tempered person, totally unlike what he had known me to be, everything was lost.
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Why did she not tell me her problems previously? It’s so unfair to keep her with me, even when I try to be selfish. This will just so screw up her whole life. And I love her. How can I not let her go? Entirely my fault if I don’t stop things right now!
Why did this have to happen? Why did I have to open up my big mouth? I had him at least for the next four months. Even if this was temporary, it felt so very real. I am not ready to let him go. Today only we were talking about situations how will the other person react when suddenly one of us just goes *pooof* (vanish) from the other’s life without having any clue. That just so happened. It’s coming true. Entirely my fault! Damn it man!!
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And I thought this will be better in a few days, however she will always stay close to my heart. I have to forget the addiction part. But how can I stop talking so suddenly? She is the best girl I have known in my life! And I will not forget all those happy moments spent with her. I miss her terribly. I could not even find it in me to go to office today.
Where the problems lesser in his life, that I had to screw him all over again, all for my own greed and selfishness. And I thought I could be normal soon enough. But just hearing songs on FM this morning made me want him more. Even my office colleague asked what happened seeing my gloomy expression and I had to just say that there’s some quarrel with my friend. What else could I say? I am a terribly bad liar. And my colleague replied was it that he proposed. I just hope with all my heart that he gets his Bella soon enough. All the luck to you, Sir!
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She shouldn’t of course have told those few things, which altered their relationship forever. Her Jacob was never coming back. That closeness feeling was still there but it was just so difficult to express it any more. No fights, no arguments, nothing; still things were not the same.
Rafta rafta ho gayi
Tu hi meri zindagi
Thoda sa dil mein darr hai
Kaise karoon main bayaan
Jaanoon na jaanoon na jaanoon na
Ek chhoti si love story! But thankfully which never really ended; there was still the promise of a real date and movie…….
About me: I am a total romantic. I see only romantic movies or animation. That’s it! I love romantic novels. I am not ashamed to say I love Mills and Boons too. I tried not mentioning any name because I am too bad at making up names, in case it coincides with any of my friend. And ya, as you would have noticed already I am a big time fan of twilight series, but just the novel, and not the movie. I have read it 10s of times. Too much naa? I know ;) But the characters just suited my story. And this one is my first try at story-writing.
