i was earning well. more than enough for my needs . i thought of spending some. the first thought that entered my mind was shopping. obviously. i always wanted a macbook. i could buy a macbook. but i wanted to do something different this time. so i decided to share it . the problem was to whom.
there are lot of people who want more money than they have. there are people who need more money than they have. then there are people like myself. so the question was to whom.
but then i got to listen to people from church and temples. they said "god gave you more so that you can give back some.we are gods people . give it to us". i thought about it for some time . then i decided to ask god itself.
god said "yes listen to them. they are people who represents me in this world. listen to them". yeah that made sense. i get more than i need. maybe its time to give back some. give back to god. give back to church
i was about to give the extra money i had to them when i saw people who are in desperate need of money. they didn't said anything to me. they didn't beg for my money. but it was all in their eyes. just one look, that's all it took. and there were lot of them. i can't help them all.
it got me to think. think really hard. "why didn't god asked me to help them instead? maybe the church people will do it. or would they? god doesn't care about them ? can i solve their problems with my money? all of them? but if god doesn't really care why should i ?" and it went on and on.
then i thought to myself "enough of this thinking. you are wasting your time. go back to being your happy self".
A selfish atheist with a brand new macbook.
