Almost every time I lose my temper, I lost control over myself. Or maybe that's what I feel like. No matter how much restriction I put, I always end up using abusive language..
I am not proud of it, its just that the insulting words slip out of my mouth. As a matter of fact, I know that once something is said, it can't be taken back. I usually goes feel ashamed of my behavior after a couple of minutes.
Nowadays its going more frequent, even during classes, loud and openly, angry or jokingly, they just get out. Foul language is becoming a part of me. A couple of days ago, a friend of mine misbehaved.. and guess what I commented loudly..
"Slap the shit out of his face"
I said that in front of the teacher. Luckily he did not take it seriously, even though half of my fellow classmates were roaring of laughter..
I have used abusive language at home, in front of mom and dad!!!!(not on them of course..on other things), Only to find myself apologize some moments afterwards.This habit is just not easy to let go of; believe me..I have tried..and still trying..
Maybe one day, I will be able to let go of this addictive habit of mine.. :(
