Memories are fresh in mind,
Of days I’d like to revisit.
Days you called me beautiful,
I remember every detailed bit.
Days I went to sleep
With a smile on my face,
Are long gone and replaced by
A girl out of place.
My legs are too skinny,
My arms just weird.
My nose is too big,
My eyeliner messily smeared.
My complexion too splotchy,
It’s not red anymore.
There are prettier smiling faces,
Than the one that I wore.
What I say isn’t important,
There’s always an idea brighter.
My words are unworthy,
My opinions don’t matter.
Suddenly every girl you talk to,
Holds something I don’t own.
As you get closer to them,
I stand here hideous and alone.
And so I realised
That after all is said and done,
If it’s not me you want,
There’ll always be another one.
Now when I look at my reflection,
I don’t know what to see.
I’m afraid to look deeper,
Into the tear stained me.
It makes me want to question,
The stupid way I feel.
Why is it what you say,
Is such a big deal.
I’m still the same girl,
You once fell for.
What’s changed is that you can’t see,
What you saw in me before.
I place a hand on my heart,
And recall all I love about me.
And when I walk to the mirror,
I see the girl I want to be.
I send a silent prayer to God,
To let me be this way.
Cause if ugly is how I am,
It’s how I’m going to stay.
