feeling small

wrote this long time young when I was just a teen, thought to share it.

I feel so small, so small
its hard to define
trying to make a rhyme
with my poor vocabulary
all I write turns out to be malicious
this low self esteem
it expands like a beam
I hope to suppress it
for that I am unfit
what I shall I do
to get across through
this bond of internal bleeding
like blood everywhere shedding
absorbing my strength
as a child I felt
running away is too easy
I want problems to make me crazy
but I am too lazy
someday I may
but today is not the day
to overpower this smallness
this I must confess