This site is already flooded with articles on falling in love, living in love and also letting go and now it's my turn to add another.
There's a difference in my way of letting go. Of course, like most of them i have died a million times before i decided to fall out of love. I too had my part of sleep deprived nights, waiting for the calls but not receiving when the phone actually rang, crying along with the sky when it rained or shattered with the thought that my world has now come to an end.
Falling in love took time and falling out of love took longer. You can do anything you wish, mold your mind and act like you want to but, only if you really wish to. There have been times when i wanted to call someone up when i felt suffocated, leaving no space for my brain to breathe but i preferred falling asleep because my mind needed rest and not many knew my heart was broken. I wanted to stop the most beautiful feeling i ever felt because it dint feel beautiful anymore.I isolated myself from people, started liking solitude, came close to nature, i kept away from all attachments scared that i would be hurt again.
But, trust me all this was difficult only till i believed it was difficult. One fine day i decided to start fresh. I decided to end the way i felt for him. I tried letting him go but ignoring and being rude to someone was not my thing. I felt bad about my behavior. I realized my happiness was in letting go my feeling for him and not him. The next time i received his call i behaved like we were strangers who just met and then everything was okay. We talk once in a while. I have drawn boundaries that I dont cross.
Everything will fall in place one day. You just need to know what makes you happy and act accordingly. If a super emotional person like me could fall out, anybody can.
No doubt i have kept myself away from love from then, may be i will for years to come. I talk about liking some guy to my friends but the truth is i can't even like anybody, at least not so soon. But i am happy, now that i don't live where i once used to. Life is beautiful.
