Eternal problem of confusion

I am goddamned. Godamned to an eternity. It is a livid nightmre living through this eternity which never ceases to end. Instead of standing bravely and staring into the eyes of the problem, challenging it to have a one-on-one with me, I am running away, as far and as fast as I can. In fact, I am justifying what an idiot I am by soaking my head into another problem, when I haven't even got rid of the first problem.
I thought...