I’m totally stuck here, mentally and psychologically. How I wish to get out of these chains. The thing is the system has taken its toll on me and I’m lost, had been for so long since I started thinking on my own. But the process did teach a lot- life lessons, behavior traits, people skills etc. But all of this doesn't make me happy, doesn't give me a sense of purpose. A couple of days ago I was so excited about the new passion I had just found in me. A pristine fire lit in me, but was put out before it could burn the inertia inside me. This is the worst case scenario in real world: I don’t like anything here, people- I just don’t care about them, passions and inspiration- lost and dead. But there comes a fresh start, no matter how dark the night, the sun shines the morning.
Okay, so what to do? I do have a purpose but it’s somewhat far sighted and won’t yield quick results and that builds up the impatience in me. But it’s time to learn the most valuable mantras in life: patience, humility, perseverance, integrity and character. I am learning those things hands on now. And about what I've been doing till now. Nothing. But now I’m doing and I’m not going to stop again. This inaction has already handicapped me enough for a lifetime.
So get control of your life, make plans, stick to them, do things and don’t expect returns.
"We spend one-third of our lives sleeping, do you want to spend the rest of it doing the same too or, you want to change the world and make a difference."
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