Does she need help?
I have known her for a little more than 2 years now. She has considerably changed. It is not just her physical appearance but her mentality as well. I am perplexed whether i should celebrate the change or bemoan the loss of her innocence. More than surprised, i am worried for her. i know change is good and for the benefit of all. however i just feel something ain't right here. no, i am not being jealous or judgmental of her. it is just that i feel at times that i have lost her. she acts weird at times. there are days when she is completely fine and then suddenly one day she stops speaking and doesn't return to the room the whole night. to a stranger reading this, i may be perceived as the one needing help. however the issue lies in the fact that these tactics i describe are of a lady who till 2 years back would keep my things as neat and clean as hers. this change was bound to happen. it is not just a stereotype but girls undergo this transition when they move from villages to cosmopolitan cities. i do not blame their excitement to explore this new world with infinite liberties and opportunities.
However i am scared of the loss of innocence and manners they undergo in this process. if gradually all the young girls would move to the cities for their education and lose their etiquette which i am sure their parents have imbibed in them with great pains and care it would ultimately lead to a loss of culture in the citizens of our nation. Anyways , sorry for digressing, the main reason why i am writing this is, my anxiety. I am anxious for this young lady. These extreme reactions that she indulges in confuse me greatly. One day she is extremely kind and nice and the next day she is totally ignorant of my presence. This behavior of hers highly irks me. I may like to dispose my reaction to the situation as being too conscious or possessive of her. But trust me i have grown out of that and learned to accept that her choices are in complete contrast with mine and maybe that's why we have stuck together for the last 2 years without indulging in any major cat fights.
I like to think of the current situation in positive terms and tell myself to adjust for a period of another 6 months. that ll be it, we may never even see each other again for the rest of our lives. hence cherish those memories and enjoy the time now. Her upbringing varies deeply from mine. I have been born and brought up in different cosmopolitan cities in contrast she has been born and brought up in the same village added to her conservative muslim background. I do not blame her,she is a young girl enjoying her new freedom and life with her friends from similar backward rural areas. I try to be joyous when she is present in the room and try to not think of the reasons behind her absence. I have learnt to give her the space she needs. I understand that she comes from a different background and culture. I think i need to remember that she is just my roommate and not my partner!!
