Christmas and me

Although i am not a Christian,
Still i believe in Santa Claus,
Every year in my childhood,
He used to pause,
I looked up in morning.
I always got a pretty gift,
I thought i got what i was yearning,
very swift swift,
when i grew little older,
i came to know the truth,
Santa claus was my father,
who used to gift me farther,
i miss christmas cakes,
i miss my christmas tree,
i used to celebrate christmas ,
with my friends very famous,
it used to give me warmth,
it used to give me belief,
but now i am cold and lonely,
like a left alone Christmas tree in snow,
i wish i could have all fun and frolic i had,
spend time in church listening carols,
and goody goody things...