Bitter Sweet Symphony

Its life. Returning back from office, walking on the lonely road at around 12 midnight, words of this song echoed in my ears. Bitter sweet symphony its life. I kept on walking, realizing how true these words were. I was sad, very sad. As I was on the turn to my lane there was a wine shop on the other side of the road. I wanted beer. I deserved every drop of it.

The matter is concerned with the failed love life of mine. I had been holding on this hope that everything will be fine and one day she'll come back. I know she's not that angry any more. I had been confused for why she's still mad at me. Today I know. Maybe thats still just my wrong assumption and I hope m right but today I got to know something. Something which must mean a lot. I stalk her and I saw she had added her ex-boyfriend on facebook as friend. Well, end of the story for me, I guess. There nothing more painful for a man than jealousy because it happens to him only on one occasion. To see his girl getting close to someone else. And that is why I was sad. Very sad. And hurt and shattered. I wanted someone. Even I would like to go back to my ex-girlfriend. But I won't do that. Probably.

So I bought two beer bottles. Equipped for celebrating sadness m home, alone, as usual. Wanted to say something, so m here writing. She's not here on writerbabu and even if she is, I don't care.

But what now? Will I be able to forget her? It has been four years I had been in love with her. There was just a small time, last time when we talked, that she had started to accept my love, but now thats all gone. Maybe that doesn't mean anything, but that would be just a consolation for my poor heart.

Well, all I can say is sadness good too. Had not been sad since a long long time, just because I choose to be happy because it made her sad when I go sad. But lets keep that bullshit aside. M sad now. M so sad that I can even kill myself. But I know, thats useless, because that won't ease the pain. M very sure that there must be something called soul and that would be just me after being dead. And I am the one who is feeling the pain so I will again feel this pain. So why not stay alive and bang some hot chicks.

The love is gone from my life so why not have some real fun. What say?

Well m drunk and sad and desperate but what else can I do now ... still I won't take your name, bitch!! Be happy, but you'll regret it one day, BIGTIME in your life ... n life is really long ...