It's strange how you can still feel lonely in a crowd of people finding solace from being alone. I look around and I see lonely people who resort to drinking and clubbing only because they want to appear cool to their peers. Not that I am judging, I am also part of that crowd. But amidst the crowd, I still feel myself drunk.
To be fair I am longing to get back home so that I can text to my tomboy friend and tell her that she deserves better. I can get better for her. I want to be better for her.
I know that she is not into me. Bloody hell... Nobody is into guys like me.. I know she will humor me saying that it's so sweet... But I really want to take you out. Not because I fancy you but because you deserve better.. Why can't you see it.... It's OK... I understand... It's very difficult to notice someone who does not exist....
It's OK o will continue my life in my anonymity and just hope that someday you will remember that I existed... Even for a brief moment but all I wanted was you to be happy
