A friend just remarked that she would like to write a love letter. Then began the usual bantering and asking questions since she is already married and has a kid. She said in all seriousness, "I want to write the letter to myself!!". I was stunned.
A letter to oneself? The dynamics of that is mind boggling for me. To write such a letter, I must know myself and be very brave to actually revisit all my strengths as well as weaknesses. Will I actually face up to them at least now? How can I love some part of me which I truly don't like? Can I be true to myself? So many thoughts rush in...I am not sure I want to write about all that!! Why would I want to open myself to self-derision and wouldn't I be boasting or may be even that I think too much of myself?
But then, the letter is to myself...I can at least try. And, by the way, my name is Smita :) So here goes...
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Dear Smita,
It's been such a long time since I wrote to you. How are you? Hope you are taking care of yourself well enough.
I miss you. My heart pines for the girl that you are. I miss your smile, the smile that shines through your eyes. When you smile like that, your face lights up. And then, the world becomes a better place.
I have realized lately that you have begun to focus your energies to think that nothing will work out. It is not true. You feel as though you are alone and are not doing enough. But that's not true either. Somewhere in your heart, you already know that you are doing what you can.
You are a loving, caring person. That shines through every time you are with me. You are never alone; for you, have me holding your hands and walking along with you. I will wipe your tears and keep your spirits up. You have my shoulders to lean on when you are tired.
I am here only for you...For only I know your true worth.
You are precious and are unique in your own beautiful way.
I love you....
Smita...
