You said you would never leave me, you lived in the same apartment I did, you cared for my daughter when I needed you too, you said that you would do any thing for me, and you showed me things of other worlds I had never seen before, when my husband left us and you picked me up off the ground, when I cried you were there.
But then you weren't, a year flew by with you, and you had broken up with me several times just to beg me back into your life, I came to find out that you had created back up plans by the names of hannah, sara, and others. You were cheating and thought it was okay.
I couldn't turn you on any more, I couldn't make you laugh anymore, I couldn't do anything left for you, you had taken what you had wanted and I was sucked dry of anything left for you, a Zombie who still worshiped you, until that day when you said something horrible about my daughter, and you left.
I was in our apartment allow, I lived alone with my daughter. I had to work two jobs to keep that place and barely had time for my daughter, I ended up losing both jobs and at the time you were crazy about me again. Wanted me, needed me, because I was talking to someone else, and you were jealous. Any time I talked to any other man you got jealous even after you left me, even after I moved, even after any fight we had. You couldn't stand the thought of me being with someone else. it killed you.
But here today states away from you, I got to thinking, I wasn't the weak one in the relationship, I gave it my all and then some and in the end when my effort faltered I still tried, you were the weak one, the slow one, the one who doesn't really know what love is, I am happy that I got to be with you, because of what I have learned but if you were standing in front of me right now I would tell you that you are pathetic, and a coward. You have nothing left for you here in my life. The damage you did, however much it hurt is gone now, I know nothing that happened was really my fault, I didnt make you move out, I didnt make you cheat, I didnt make you pick fights with your friends, I didnt make you do anything.
I'd tell you now if I could that my daughter doesn't remember you, and that I am in a healthy, lovable , laugh filled relationship, with someone who is nothing like you.
And if you were here right now I would tell you that the things you taught me about computers did in fact come in handy, you would know exactly what I meant, you loved your computer more than you ever loved me, you were always on it creating new affairs, and what not. I wish you all the best in the world I hope you shape up, I hope you find happiness, but I know that you had a chance, I would have done almost anything for you, ant it wasnt that I wasnt enough it was that you were too weak to be true, and to much a coward to be faithful. You were everything you said you wouldn't be. A lair, a coward, a cheater, abusive. and so much more. You're nothing to me now but a lesson learned and a love lost.
And I couldn't be happier.
