Its been just two days and im broke without you. I dont know how you feel right now but I'm not only broke on the inside but outside to. Its so hard to control my emotions my pain my sadness just flows in, decaing my heart slowly. Yeah it may not look like it but ive been doing nothing but cry. I cried because it was so hard for me to take a decision to take that one away and create a distance. Getting close to you dismantled your face in such a way it could never stretch its lips on it ends show of your teeth and smile again. Maybe it could never know what it is to smile again.
When i took that one step away from you things seemed so much different there was so much more happiness around you the air around you was filled with joy you could smile again not for the that i walked away but that the burden of "expectations in a relationship"wasnt there any more. Maybe I was just supposed to love you from a distance and I stepped into your life abit to early. I may have just got carried away and got hasty and without preparing for anything I just made you walk with me.
It may have been abit to late but I realised how much I curbed you from doing things. Things may be hard for me but i shall watch you live your will.I cant have my mistakes ruin an innocent one and be the reason that tears roll down today. If the world fails you again it could be time that I help you stand and the step I took away from you I maybe have the courage to walk up to you and hold your hand and not let you fall. If you find someone worth your time then ill just have to sit back and see how someone does something I failed in, do it marvelously.
I am sorry for walking abit away but loving you from a distance is all i can do and let you live that life that you always lived so wonderfully.
Ill just have to be that one step away so that you can smile again and not because I dont love you but love you enough not to ruin your smile again
