I was sitting there.....drenched in tears....I looked at my mom, the one I have to support always; I looked at my sister, the one I have to protect always and then I looked at my father the one I have to fight always in order to protect and support my only family.....my mother and my sister....
His brown eyes stares down at me.....not with love but with hatred. Sometimes I wonder he even likes or loves me???......my only father....whom I always respected,loved and obeyed....how can he???..how can he shun my feelings???...
Those hesitations I hate the most when we cross each other's path in the same house and we still have nothing to say to each other.....we look at each other and then immediately glance away....Is this my fate???? Are all fathers like that???.....I am his first daughter and how can he so insensitive towards me???....He never laid his hand above my head with love...He never hugged me when I needed it the most....He just walked away...like he always does.
I know he cares for me but our relation is no longer the same.....no longer the love stays in it....no longer he stays nor me......
Just once I wish just once he open his arms and say to me," Forget everything that ever happened between us. In the end, you will still be my daughter and I am your father and nobody can change that."
I will happily wrap my arms around him....and forgive him for all that he has done to break my heart....but this seems a long lost dream that will never turn into reality......
But the bitter reality still stands in front me that I was his family but I am not now and I will never be again......my tears have run dry but still he never turned around once to wipe them off......
I know I cannot be weak I have to stand strong for my mother and sister and I have to accept the fact that father's protective and loving shed will never come and stay in my life.......Suddenly a thought comes to me...what if I'll be the same to my children like he has been to me all these years...then I quickly dismiss it and decide that I never want anyone to say
....'LIKE FATHER LIKE DAUGHTER'..........
