"It's not fair." I wanted to scream.
I tossed and turned restlessly on my bed. My afternoon nap ruined.
I was wild with anger. With her.
She'd ruined my day. I wanted to clean my windows. So I requested my neighbor, who lived below us, to please remove her just washed clothes hanging out from the small balcony at the back.
"Aap kal kar lijiye, abhi meri bai chali gayi..mujhe kaha bahar jaana hai." She replied indignantly.
"Maine already safai shuru ki hai..kal mujhse nahi hoga, aap please nikaliye." I pleaded with her.
She refused adamantly.
The anger grew inside me. I'm gonna show her what I can do, I decided. Ruin her clothes. Teach her a lesson. I hated her.
That's exactly what I did. I continued with my washing. Anger brewing all the while inside me.
Half an hour later, the phone rang.
"Aapne mere kapde sab kharab kar diye."
For the next ten minutes, I was a completely different person. I screamed. At least I'd informed her about the clothes this time, next time I wouldn't even do that, I told her. I banged the receiver down.
Much in need of some moral support, I called hubby dear. "It wasn't good of you to scream like that," he said quietly.
I tried to sleep. But couldn't. I was right, but why was I feeling disturbed suddenly?
I turned to Him.
He was on chat.
"Hmmm. Tell her you are sorry."
"What, no way!!!
It isn't really fair, isn't she the one who should apologize?" I retaliated.
"Well, then have your way."
I tossed and turned some more.
It was already four.
"Hello."
I apologized.
Strangely, she seemed calm. I thought she'd slam the phone down.
"Maine itni boori tarah kabhi kisise baat nahi ki, lekin aaj aapse jo kiya hai, mujhe maaf karna."
She was fine with it.
A load seemed to roll off me just then.
"You're right, as always," I informed my Friend.
"You are not accountable for her actions, but only your own!" He replied.
I felt such peace.
As if He were smiling inside of me.
