Saiera's Diary

I m confused about my feelings .. i dont think i love u but i dont know what i feel .. i want u to b in my life .. and i know i will stop and leave everything for u .. but what is it that makes u hate me or atleast ignore me .. am i asking for too much ? Is hoping for a little friendship is such a big demand .. i dont know ..

It's been a year n half since I know u . I just want u to b happy . I know u care for me but dont know whether u love me or not . but I will keep on living u like this forever . will give u anything u ask for , without questions or even a little temper . I want nothing but yr happiness . luv u J .

Ventured through omegle for the first time . really a very nice website . i just luv it , made so many new friend today . it's really fun talking to people u don't know .
Luv u diary.
Luv u J .
My luv for u is eternal .
Will luv u like this forever .

I told him about my feelings today and he said he also feels for me but I don't want relations . I just want us to b friends . I love u . love u more than anyone else does .

I know you like me . I really love u but I am happy that you at least have some feelings for me . It's like OMG , thank u god he at least thinks about me . I m sure I m going to change this infatuation of your into eternal love . Just waiting for the right time to come . I insanely love you from the past one year since we broke up . I started feeling for you after we broke up , But I used to like u ever since I first saw u . whenever I recall the past , when I visualize both of us together in the coming future I feel like I m on the top of the world . Hope for the best . Bcoz hope is what gives u a reason to live cheerfully in fact it is the reason we live . when a person loses hope he doesn't even have a reason to live . Hope for better , hope of doing great , hope that your love is always their with you or the hope that you will get your love just like I hope for and so on , every one has a different hope which brightens their day , which sparks a spirit in them and give every reason to believe in life . I think I m sounding a bit philosophical at the moment .
Have nothing to do except thinking about u . I love u and HOPE to listen that u also do .
I can keep on righting the whole night but I don't think it's a good option anyhow so I need to stop right down here at this point .
gun nite .
sweet dreams .
Love u diary and live u JK .

Sometime things dont go according to you but still you have to cope up with it .Feeling so sad and shaken that how can b someone so inhuman . How can we kill our fellow beings . We have no right to bring someones life to an end . It really very sad to see the massive distruction of life in paris . Its really heart shattering news .

I wish I could go back into my past and change some of the past deeds , and especially my mistakes .... Sometime I feel so guilty .... Its so embarrassing .... I wish I can make everything allright .... Hope that soon ye wakt bhi guzar jaega , aane wala kal naya ujala layega.... Don't know what the upcoming time will reveal but hope it brings something cheerful and good all along with it ....

Hey sanjana I was just going through your dairy and read your post ..... I think the idea is quiet nice ....... Dhoom 4 :D good idea .... Sorry for being late ....

Ma pal do pal ka shayr hu
Pal do pal meri khani hai
Pal do pal meri hasti hai
Pal do pal meri jawaani hai ....
Best motivating song ever ....whenever I feel sad I tune this song and feel so light and a sense of relief from all my griefs and troubles....and I m feeling so happy today .....because your troubles are until you run , you try to escape from them . But I can't have troubles anymore and will never have coz I have found the key to happiness . And the golden rule to happiness says that start feeling that you have no problm N u r happy , and you will then really find yourself happy ....

WTF .... What the hell is going to happen in my life .... Seriously its damn boring .... I wish it were no more normal ... I want something crazy to happen in my life ... I seriously mean it ... Oh god please , please , please I wish you to bring about some change in my life ..... I wish you to make me known to that special someone at least ....

Feeling very lonely n sad....
Donno the reason why I m feeling so .. It may sound absurd but I really donno the reason .... Mayb its coz of the guilt over my past deeds , I m feeling regretful ...
Wish there was someone with whom I could share everything ....
But I m pretty sure god will send that special someone very soon .... I have faith in him ....
Gunnight everyone....

Hey everybody .......

This is for the first time I m expressing myself on a social platform like this ..... I would have never thought of writing my thoughts but when I came across so many diary entries I thought it was the right place and its the right time to start ......

This is the first diary entry of mine and I donno what to write about .... I just want you all to know a lil about me ... I m in eleventh standard and have a single dream to make my father proud and to get admission into my dream college .... I luv making friends and my favourite pass time is to skecth spirits and demons and monsters .....

Gud night everyone and sweet dreams . :)