girly girl...'s Diary

am i fat and ugly ?/ good for nothing ??

i don't know why i called u ..

u r so busy ... so busy ...

i can tell you about my pain ... but u have to promise to lesson ...
i what u to understand my sadness ... but u have to emotionally attached to my feelings ...
i can show u my real emotion ... but i know u can't feel the pain ...
so leave it ..
i am happy that u r happy .. :)

i want to be with you but u push me so hard ...

can u feel me when i think about u , with every breath i take ..
every minute no matter what i do ..
a day without u is like a year without rain .. i need u by my side , i don't know how can i survive..

expectation kills my v day..
but all he need to do is give me some time .. is it too much ??
long distance relationship and valentine day plan .. just video call ..
no dinner , no date or gift ..
but still ...
he is too busy with his world .. not collage but friends and music ..
a very happy FUCK valentine's day !!!!!

why you can not make effort for me ?? why you can not show me some efforts ?? i am not angry i am just sad ..

waitingggggggg!!!!

i will wait to be with u ..
i will wait to hold ur hand ..
happy long distance relation to us .. :)

you go away from me but not from my heart.. this time distance just a number for me .. :)

back together ...
yes we can't live without each other..
i am really happy .. :)

fool..
yes i am .. my best people also do not care about me.. they have their lives, boy friends ... but why i always care for other people's emotion ?? why i am so available for all my friends ?? felling terrible.. still have to smile ..

i am still waiting ..
its official i am a big fool.. he hurt me so badly still i love him ..still i want this relation. still i am waiting for him .. waiting for magic .. :(

last chance...
last chance to hurt myself.. to feel the pain again..
just not anymore .. last chance and you miss the chance ...
now i have to live with pain and broken heart ...
but i will be fine.. :)

is there anything call fairy tale BRKUP ?? for me not .. in a brkup have to brk something .. and in my case its me .. i am broken .. pain and loneliness ..

brkup = move on?
i have to forget that person as soon as possible. but what about those beautiful memories ? i have to forget them to ?

good bye .. sometime painful but sometime i love it .. i good bye her and my lots of problem will go with her.. this time i am happy to say goodbye .. a happy goodbye .. :)

her good sleep night is region for my sleepless night ....

long distance relationship
u can get love, care or support but from distance.
and this distance can kill your love, care or support..
careful or carefree about your long distance relationship ...

now days every thing we use have security .... our mobile phone, laptop or bank ATM card .. but we left open the most impotent part of us .. our heart .. why we left our heart open in this insecure world? secretly we really want to break it or rape our heart ... o poor heart ..