deep's's Diary

hell in the office..................
:-#

hi...

i started my day .......im in night shift so its my day..........
early morning
around 4.45 AM while going home in office cab 1 girl...she is not in a condition to move, she is in such a condition dont no she met with an accident or she was thrown there by any one.........she was there in a helpless way.............i hope nothing should went wrong with her.............i even cant do any thing other than praying for her............
today morning while reading the news........ i was shocked......... a 6 months old baby
raped by a 29 year old man?????? on which planet we are living ???
i am not saying men are not good.......but if a 6 months baby is not having security wher we have to live???
nothing can be changed nothing can be done only i can drop 1 tear..........

1 day i believe its not enough to write....its not enough to take out my tears...its not....

trusting the people its a good thing but it doesn't mean you should forget your responsibilities.... i am not running from any thing but its not stopping chasing me.....

waiting for good time with good hope..................i ned to love my self thats what i can do.............i cant kill my hope....i can t kill my self

i lost my patience i applied for diverse and i left the house, in this struggle i lost my kid.... after a very long time again i want to kill my self its not simple , for that even need more guts...which i dont have

joined a job..... started a new life but the mistake i made its not leaving my back...
i cant live i cant die living like a half dead......

mine its a cute love story, i never thought there will be a twist in that in middle.....
my mom took divorce and again problems started in my life... its true parents will impact kids ....my boy friend forced to leave my house ,my mom which i cant ....my mom left me but i cant do that with her... i no she is having no 1 other than me, so finally i breakup my 1st love.... :-((

Ist love will be 1st and the best..but i lost that, i no its no 1's fault but i cant be mean.. and later my moms health went down day by day....don't no how to manage,
then started doing part time jobs where i met another person and again fall in love..this time i am little lucky this relation went little long... i finished my B.Tech got married to him, blessed with a baby girl....but its not an happy ending.... i came to no about the black sheep very lately ....

he started selling my gold.... he stopped going for work ... he started showing the true colors...i have seen 100 years of life in just 3 years.... that much hell i have seen both physically and mentally... i cant go back to my mom... i cant be with him... at last he did that thing which a animal will not do even.. he tried to sell me

HI....i am saying hi to my self, my saying this to me at least i will feel i am not alone in this world. i am from a very normal south Indian family. I was 4 when i lost my father in an terrible accident. God grace my mom got my dad's job .she got a chance to leave me alone and got married to another person, sorry my step father. my mom left me with my grand parents, from there my life started........................

i was 7 to 8 years old i believe my mom took me to their house for 1 day she left me alone in the house and she went out for work.....that is the first time i got affected psychologically....my step father misbehaved with me........

i am in 7th class when my own cousin tried to rape me.......after seeing all this shit i tried to kill my self many times............

being in this kind of environment i entered my collage....... there i met with 1 person....... at that time i am not aware what is going to happen in my life cause of him