"Maybe a drive will help. Or maybe a movie." But then there would be kissing and all of those romantic stupid things in the movie she'd have to look at. Things she knew she could never have. Apart from that same old stupid love, she had everything. She had the family, she had the brains, she had the passion, she had the ambition, and to an extent some looks. But why did they all seem so small, so... unimportant... when she thought of him? She had spoken to him for a brief amount of time during an event in another city and there was this feeling of a 'spark' - or atleast for her. She soon realized she didn't deserve him-she just didn't make the cut to be worthwhile of his thoughts. But the damned feeling simply wouldn't go away.
She saw him around sometimes- and each time she did she forgot the entire world around her. She became weak-he made her weak-she let him make her weak. She didn't like this person she was becoming. A sad, shallow, ungrateful, desperate soul with absolutely no stand of her own. It went against her very core values of ambition and independance!
But then there was him. So desirable, so dreamy, so distracting.
The best thing she could hope for now was to get over this despicable little crush she had let change her. "Stories like that aren't meant for people like you," she thought to herself after watching anything with a happy ending. "They talk about lives of good people. Good people that are worthy and deserving of other good people. You be yourself and go realize that destiny of success that awaits for you. Because without that, you are nothing but another insignificant form of life that's trying to survive on this piece of mud and dirt that isn't even visible from a few light years away. Yes, that's what I should be doing. Achieving greatness."
And then again she saw him. And again, she felt the world around her go numb.
