It turns Black

There is blue,
And there is red.
Looks like others are happy,
But me just so sad.
Skies are blue, but
Reflections in my eyes are red.
Angry, tired, and a lot jealous.

There are colors,
And there is black.
Colorful dresses I wear,
But my soul is black.
Shouts I want to do,
Curses I want to hurl,
Stones I want to throw,
Nerves I want to cut.

There is life.
And there is death.
You were at my side. Once
You were mine. Once.
You were"only" mine. Once.

Things have changed.
And so have you.
But let it be,
I have no more claim on u.